soo.. judul diatas diambil dari salah satu episode Grey's Anatomy season 7...
Adapt or Die?
in life.. rasanya gk mungkin kita akan terus2an hidup di zona nyaman ya... (maafkan krn penguasaan kosakata Inggris makin berkurang.. ampuunn...). kita selalu dipaksa untuk berubah, for good things of course.. dan saat pemaksaan itu terjadi... we have choices.. either we want to adapt.. or we die, just leave it behind...
honestly... I'm not sort kind of person who like changes... ummm... correction... I don't like changes... AT ALL... I mean... why do we have to leave such a comfort zone? where we already been there, feel comfort, feel save... Really, why?
but this is life.. life is full of changes, rite?
for examples of course... my clothes... they seems to be shrinken... (Denial, just ignore this)
okay back Ocha... back to the topic... life is full of changes...
i was single then i got married, i got pregnant, i delivered a baby... skip... skip... i got to work.. now that i feel comfort with my work... tadaaaaaa.... came the letter... ahiks...
it was something I always postpone to think about... i really dont want to think about it until... umm... at least my husby finish his study... (dan kalau diperbolehkan pun, klo boleh... blom pengen mikir itu juga pas ntar husby lulus). arrrrghhhh... kenapa saya dipaksa mikir bginian sekarang???
apa sih isi suratnya?? tak lain dan tak bukan adalah... ummm.... ituh... syarat buat jadi dosen.. kan harus minimal S2 kan ya sekarang? bgitu bukan? bgitu?? jadiiii... kami sebagai dosen yg masih S1 harus segera mengajukan rencana study, shg diharapkan 2014 sudah selesai. dan itu, ajuan rencana study itu.. paling lambat harus taun ini... ini sudah bulan apa sodara-sodara??? udah mau untup2 bulan november inih... aaarrghhh....
okay selingan, hal lain yg (sebenernya) bikin males jadi dosen adalah... selain syarat S2 ato S3nya... serdos... harus ngumpulin banyaakkkk berkas dan penilitian, aih tuh kan jadi salah tulis... penelitian... dan yg bikin males dari jadi dokter adalah.... tiap 5 taun harus perbarui registrasi dokternya... which mean... ngumpulin berkas2 juga... and I'm not that organized... I can't always collect my umm.. what do you call itu... surat tugas, etc.. etc.... hauuuu......
apa hubungannya ama harus skolah lagi? itu juga butuh berkas... banyak... kumpulin ttd... nemuin orang2... mnt rekomendasi... well dont get me wrong... i KNOW that it is a must... and i MUST like it, yea? I just.... huaaaa.... knp gk sesimple masuk SMP-SMA sih? masuk kuliah juga kan cm tes aja, berkas nilai SMA, ijazah.. gitu aja bukan?
okay.. okay... saya udah dicap males deh pasti... but I mean... hiks.. nope I meant nothing... sudahlah... emg itu syaratnya...
okay... sekolah lagi... now that I'm not a single gal anymore... there's a lot to think... mau ambil apa... S2 atau spesialis.. DIMANA?
dari dulu emg suka nunda mikirin ini krn, yaaahh... biar gimana-gimana tetep harus nunggu husby lulus dulu kan? trus tau husby kerja dimana... br bs ambil keputusan mau skolah apa, dimana, pembiayaan dimana...
klo skrg? husby blm lulus.. blm tau mau dimana.. iya klo tetep di malang sih gpp saya bisa enak ambil beasiswanya.. (eh gk juga sih... lha S2/spesialis yg dimauin adanya d luar malang juga). trus gimana donk...
lalu Kakak.... rasanya gk mungkin juga ninggal anak.. huhuhuuuhuuu... walau berada dlm pengawasan uti-akung sih... tp blm kebayang aja ninggal anak... walau kuliahnya ada yg nawarin sabtu-minggu juga... tp bayangkan aja... senin-jumat kerja, sabtu-minggu kluar kota ninggal anak, saat keluarga2 lain liburan... saat si Kakak minta diajak jalan2... That's not a life I ever dream of....
untuk sementara sih... hiks...
kita bukan meninggalkan zona nyaman koq... cm memperlebar zona nyamannya... dan bayangin aja ketika nanti orang lain masih harus susah2 mikir ninggal anak dan kluarga kita uda nyaman dengan kerjaan...
that was i told one of my friend when she decided to have her master degree...
but when it comes to me? when it come to my turn to decide? huaaaa... huaaaaa *nangis keras-keras*
i want to be a clinician... to be honest being a lecturer was not my dream... i can never imagine i'll teach.. :)
but this is life, yea? full of unexpected things...
and it's just my responsibility for deciding to have married.. to have a child.. jadi siapapun yg bilang knp saya married klo gk gini, gini, mana tanggung jawab gini gini... Hey... this is me... working here... and in order to keep my work safe... i have to continue studying... and it's not that i dont want to think about it.... i have a looottttt to think.... huwww...
baiklah, yasudahlah.... makin ngaco curcol-nya...
give me time to think... tapi ntar ya... abis nyelesein jatah lokakarya tgl 3 november.. saya ketuanyaaaa... huaaa... semangaaattt...
kaya di Grey's Anatomy juga...
Adapt or Die? I will survive this.
